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  When Love Wins

  Sherryl D. Hancock

  Copyright © 2016 Sherryl D. Hancock

  All rights reserved.

  ISBN: 1539643158

  ISBN-13: 978-1539643159

  DEDICATION

  To my love, my life, my soul mate, the person that made writing this story possible. I love you Tirzah, thank you for loving me and giving me everything I never realized I needed.

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  Thanks to Google and the fantastic websites that the Air Force has online.

  Thanks to the men and women of the armed forces who lived under the cloud of Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell and made it through the other side.

  CHAPTER 1

  “So you’re gay,” Shenin Devereaux said, her tone matter of fact.

  “Yep,” Tyler Hancock confirmed simply, her brow furrowed in the dark, she couldn’t tell if Shenin was freaking out, or if she didn’t think it was a big deal.

  Shenin and Tyler had been friends for six months. They were both Airman in the United States Air Force, and part of the same unit at Nellis Air Force Base in Las Vegas, Nevada. They belonged to the Security Force detail on base, and were responsible for on base security, policing activities for Air Force personnel as well as anti-terrorism.

  They’d met six months before on the day Shenin arrived at the base. She’d been transferred from Beale Air Force Base in Sacramento, California. She’d just checked in with the base commander, but hadn’t been told where the barracks for the base were. She’d been standing outside, trying to decide whether or not to just wait for someone to walk by who she could ask, or go back inside and ask. That’s when a person on a blue Harley Davidson motorcycle pulled up in front of the Admin Building.

  Shenin watched as the person, definitely a woman, got off the bike, she took in the jeans, cowboy boots, leather chaps and blue and black Harley Davidson jacket, it looked warm, she was freezing, since she was wearing a short sleeved uniform, and hadn’t thought to grab her jacket out of her duffel. She also noticed the long braid that went down the woman’s back almost to her waist. When the woman turned around and took off the helmet, she smiled and Shenin saw the deepest dimples she’d ever seen, with a very bright smile and very blue eyes.

  Tyler couldn’t help but notice Shenin, for one, she was a red-head, and she also had a body that would stop the proverbial Mack truck. There was no way she was going to avoid talking to this one, no way in Hell. Shenin made it easy.

  “Is that a Softail?” Shenin asked, looking at Tyler’s bike.

  “Heritage,” Tyler said, nodding, then quirked an eyebrow, “You ride?”

  “Yeah,” Shenin said, nodding and smiling, “Not a hog though.”

  “What do you have?” Tyler asked.

  “Honda Shadow Spirit 750,” Shenin replied.

  “750?” Tyler repeated, looking surprised, and that she might need to re-evaluate the new comer, “Impressive.”

  “Yeah, yeah, I know,” Shenin said her tone wry, the look on her face mocking as she said, “little thing like you, with all that power between your legs…” her voice trailed off suggestively, like most men’s would after a statement like that.

  Tyler laughed, nodding, “Yeah, I’ve heard shit like that more times than I can count.”

  “Annoying as fuck, isn’t it?” Shenin said, rolling her eyes.

  “You said it!” Tyler agreed.

  They both laughed.

  “We should ride sometime,” Tyler said, smiling.

  “That would be great, just not when I’m going to freeze my ass off,” Shenin said, shivering.

  “Or dying of heat stroke,” Tyler added.

  “Or that,” Shenin said, nodding.

  “Senior Airman Tyler Hancock,” Tyler said, extending her hand to the other woman.

  “Airman First Class Shenin Devereraux,” Shenin replied, shaking Tyler’s hand.

  “So where are you headed?” Tyler asked, having noted that Shenin looked lost when she pulled up.

  “Women’s barracks, security force.”

  Tyler looked momentarily surprised, then nodded, “You must be the newbie we’ve been expecting,” she said, grinning.

  “Four damned years in, and I’m the newbie again, son of a…” Shenin replied, her voice trailing off.

  Tyler laughed, “Don’t worry, we’re not all bad,” she said, grinning, “you’re actually going to be bunking with me, we’re two and two in the dorms. Welcome to Nellis,” she said, smiling. “So where you are from?” Tyler asked.

  “Beale Air Force Base,” Shenin said.

  “California?” Tyler replied.

  “Land of fruits and nuts,” Shenin replied, having heard it before.

  “I like fruits and nuts,” Tyler replied winking. “Look give me a few minutes, I’m headed to the barracks anyway, I can take you there.”

  “That would be great!” Shenin replied, “I waited on the flight line at Beale all morning, and now I finally get here and it’s friggin cold, and I just want a hot shower and some shut eye.”

  “I think that can be arranged,” Tyler said, smiling, “Just give me a few.”

  Shenin nodded, and watched as Tyler strode into the building.

  Ten minutes later, Tyler came out of the building and noted that no less than five guys were buzzing around Shenin, trying to engage her in conversation, two of them were officers. Tyler stood back watching, she noticed that while Shenin was answering questions, and being what appeared to be polite, she didn’t seem to be taking advantage of her looks. There was no hair twirling, no batting of eyelashes, nothing like that, she was simply standing there talking to the guys. She certainly didn’t seem to have any guile or game, Tyler found that she immediately liked that about the girl.

  When Shenin saw that Tyler had come out, she politely excused herself, nodding acknowledgement to the two officers. The men, however, seemed loathe to let her walk away. Shenin glanced back at Tyler, Tyler got the silent mayday immediately.

  Walking over to the group, Tyler acknowledged the officers with eye contact and a respectful nod, she didn’t need to salute because she wasn’t in uniform.

  “Okay, boys,” Tyler said, moving between the men and getting to Shenin, her grin sly, “back off, security force property here.” And with that, she took Shenin’s arm and guided her away from the men, bending down to scoop up Shenin’s duffel while she walked by and guided the younger woman to her bike. The men looked on as Tyler gave Shenin her helmet, climbing onto the bike, as Shenin climbed on behind her. Tyler placed Shenin’s duffle over the gas tank of the bike, and started the engine with its legendary growl and rumble. Winking rakishly at the guys, she gunned the engine and expertly turned it to drive off.

  As they rode toward the barracks Shenin found herself huddling behind Tyler’s 5’7” frame, because it was cold. Part of the ride got bumpy, and Shenin gripped Tyler’s jacket at the waist, Tyler grinned at the feeling. It was the beginning of their friendship.

  Six months later found them arriving at Ronald Regan National Airport on leave. Tyler had invited Shenin home with her. They made an interesting pair, Shenin being smaller, and such a contrast to Tyler in many ways. Tyler’s hair was long, a golden brown, and extremely curly, she had a slim but strong build, whereas Shenin was petite, but curvy, with silky straight rich auburn colored hair, that hung a couple inches past her shoulders. Tyler dressed in simple jeans, her customary black cowboy boots, a button up shirt and leather Harley jacket. Shenin was dressed in black slacks, a mint green tank top with a long light black jacket and dress boots on her feet. Tyler wore no makeup, Shenin not only wore make up but jewelry that was color coordinated with her outfit as well. They were very much opposites.

  As they had left the baggage claim, Tyler bent down to pick up her camera backpack, and loop it over one shoulder, she also picked Shenin’s laptop case, looping it over the other shoulder.

  “I could have gotten that,” Shenin had said, giving her friend a narrowed look.

  “Now you don’t have to,” Tyler had said, grinning.

  Shenin shook her head, Tyler was forever doing things like that, so she was getting used to it, but she never wanted to assume that Tyler would always do that for her.

  As they walked out of the airport to catch the bus to the rental cars, Shenin was shocked by the hot, damp air that struck her almost physically. Automatically she started fanning herself with her hand.

  Tyler noticed Shenin’s movement and grinned.

  “Welcome to Maryland in the summer,” she said rolling her eyes as she did.

  An hour later they had been in their rental car on the way to Tyler’s family home, when Tyler’s cell phone rang, the display on the Bluetooth connection on the car displayed the name “Angie”. Tyler had answered the phone with her customary answer when she knew the person.

  “What’re you doin?” she had asked, smiling.

  “Where are you?” had come the sharp reply.

  Tyler had blinked, obviously surprised by either the tone of the voice, or the question or both.

  “I’m, uh, home,” she had replied, “in Maryland.”

  “Sheila said you took Devereaux home with you, is that true?” Angie had asked, her tone hurt.

  Tyler had glanced over at Shenin, already regretting the hands free Bluetooth in the rental car.

  “Yeah, she’s with me,” Tyler had said, her tone of voice taking on an edge that Shenin had easily recognized as her way of cautioning the other person to be careful with what they said. Apparent
ly “Angie” either didn’t recognize the tone, or she decided to ignore it.

  “Are you fucking her, Tyler!?” she’d screeched into the phone.

  Tyler had instantly snatched up her cell phone, canceling the hands free, and holding the phone to her ear, “Have you completely lost your mind?” Tyler had practically growled, “Or have you just decided that Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell no longer applies to me or the Air Force?”

  As Tyler had listened to the woman on the other end of the line, her look was passive, but Shenin had been able to see that her eyes were turning to ice, slowly but surely as the woman obviously ranted on and on. It hadn’t appeared that Tyler had been phased by anything the woman was saying. When the woman had gone silent for a long minute, Tyler calmly asked “Are you finished?” her voice was as cold as the ice was in her eyes at that point.

  Shenin had been able to hear a short and meek sounding reply.

  Tyler had nodded, “I will be back in ten days, have my stuff packed, I’ll pick it up when I get in.”

  With that she hung up the phone and calmly set it down in the cup holder of the car. Shenin had kept silent, not sure what she could possibly say after that conversation. She was decidedly shocked by what she’d just heard, although looking at it in hindsight; she’d also realized she should have really figured it out. She’d also known that discussing it with Tyler at that point hadn’t been the right time or place, and she hadn’t wanted to upset Tyler anymore. Once the tension in the car had finally eased, Shenin made a point of asking about other things like the houses, or the signs, allowing Tyler to have her privacy at that point in time.

  Tyler had been greatly relieved that Shenin hadn’t jumped on the gay thing right away. Tyler needed time to figure out what she was going to do.

  Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell had been meant to lift a ban on homosexuals in the military. It essentially said that the military shouldn’t ask military personnel about whether or not they were gay. The bill had also included a part about “don’t pursue, don’t harass.” Military personnel knew it was bullshit, and in no way shape or form truly protected gay members of the military from persecution. It put gays further into the closet, because they could not talk about being gay, or engage in any sexual activity. It was a ridiculous bill that only served to further alienate gays in the military. It was a joke that gays were told they couldn’t engage in sexual activity when their heterosexual counterparts could have sex with any member of the opposite sex every minute of every day, and twice on Sundays if they so desired. The idea that Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell, allowed gays to be open with their sexuality was complete and utter bullshit, and no member of the military, gay or straight thought any differently.

  It was Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell that struck fear into the hearts of any gay service members. It was a gag order, a death sentence to your career, it was no protection at all and it didn’t stop the military from dishonorably discharging gay service members. The fact was that the discharge of gay and lesbian service members had increased steadily since the law was enacted in 1993. It was not a good time to be gay in the military, and Tyler knew that full well. She had not gone into the military knowing that she was gay, but she was also not willing to lose her career over something she felt was none of the government’s business.

  Being gay had shredded Tyler’s home life when she’d come out to her parents. She’d always been a daddy’s girl, and had, indeed joined the branch of the armed forces that she had because her father was retired Air Force. When she’d discovered she was gay two years into her service, she’d known that it was going to devastate her parents, and likely her large family. It hadn’t been an easy thing to deal with, and it still wasn’t.

  Growing up in Port Tobacco, Maryland, Tyler hadn’t really been exposed to anyone who was gay. She’d been a tomboy, but then again, so was her mother, and she wasn’t gay. Her parents had been happily married for over 35 years. Being back in her home town for Tyler always seemed strange to her, ever since she’d left over twelve years before. Getting out into the world, had opened her eyes to many things, being gay was just one of those things. The trip back to Maryland had been the first in five years, the first since she’d finally admitted to her parents that she was gay.

  By the time Shenin and Tyler had reached her parents’ house Shenin had decided to wait to talk to Tyler about the phone call. She easily sensed, from what she knew about Tyler’s relationship with her parents that the gay thing was probably not well accepted. The last thing Shenin wanted to do was to upset Tyler right as she was seeing her parents again. The house they pulled up to was a red brick construction with wood framed windows painted white to match the front door. It was an older ranch style home, with a carport and long driveway. Tyler’s parents came out of the house to greet them. After a fairly awkward round of hugs, Tyler introduced them to Shenin.

  “Mom, dad, this is Shenin, she’s a friend of mine from Nellis, we’re on the security force together. Shenin, these are my parents, Carl and Becky.”

  “It’s nice to meet you,” Shenin said, smiling and extending her hand to each of them. “Your daughter was my very first friend at Nellis.” Her smile was so warm and genuine that Carl and Becky couldn’t help but like her right away.

  “Tyler always did make friends easy,” Becky said, smiling at her daughter.

  Shenin looked between them, and wondered how much her parents knew, and how much damage had been done to their relationship if they did know.

  Finding out their only daughter was gay had been jarring for Carl and Becky. Tyler had always been a tomboy, but she’d also dated guys in high school. She’d even been engaged, before she’d decided to enlist in the Air Force, like her dad had done when he was young. They just couldn’t comprehend what had happened to change her so drastically and they still weren’t sure how to deal with her. What they did know was that they loved their daughter and that they would do their best to understand her life choices.

  Tyler easily read the resolve on her parents’ faces, they were trying to cope, and she couldn’t help the little flame of hope that started in her heart. They meant the world to her, and knowing that she’d disappointed them, or made them ashamed of her, broke her heart every time she thought about it. Sometimes Tyler didn’t think she could handle facing them, but she’d known she needed to. Her father had been having heart problems, and the last thing she wanted was that the last memory she had of him was their last conversation. She’d told him that she’d had the realization that she was gay, his response was to tell her to she needed to stop hanging out with whoever she was hanging out with, that they were being a bad influence on her and would get her thrown out of the Air Force. Her mother had shaken her head in disgust and said, “You’re just letting people tell you that kind of garbage, it’s not true.” They hadn’t understood, and at the time, they hadn’t tried to understand, at least not as far as she was concerned. She’d left that same night and hadn’t gone back for five years, this was the first time since then.

  The memory of that last visit had been so clear that when she’d told then she was coming home, and they’d insisted that she stay with them, she’d been fairly sure the priest who’d given her first communion would be there to greet her. The other thought would be that they’d kidnap her and take her to a deprogrammer so they could get her un-brainwashed from that gay cult she’d joined in the desert. Neither seemed to be the case at the moment, but she knew it wasn’t impossible that there’d be a dinner or two with the local clergy.

  “So you’re Air Force?” Carl asked, Shenin his look skeptical.

  “Yes sir,” Shenin replied, “Airman first class.”

  Carl nodded, then looked at his daughter, “You make sergeant yet?” he asked.

  “Not yet, dad, but I’m working on it.” Tyler told him, making him smile.

  He looked at Shenin again, “So you’re on the security force with Tyler?” he asked, again skeptical.

  “Yes sir,” she said.

  “Little thing like you?” he said, sounding very old fashioned suddenly.

  “Yep,” Shenin said, holding back a grin. She could see that he wanted to say something about little girls carrying big guns, or something like it. She’d heard it for years now.